Music. My Heart.

Anybody who likes music will say that they have the best taste in music, and rarely will they ever concede to this point of view. At least, this is the way I see music.

I've been questioning what I'm doing with my life a lot lately. Which I think is good. This is the time that I am supposed to be questioning. I get scared sometimes that I am going into my profession because I want financial stability, not because I actually will love what I am doing. When I think of something I love, it's music. No, I do not play an instrument, nor do I sing, but I have a relationship with music.

It's more than tunes and words to me. It's a feeling. It's a feeling that will grab me and sometimes swallow me whole. It will embrace me and cradle me, and sometimes it will throw me to the wolves. Do I have the best taste in the world? Probably not. I definitely love my Britney Spears and Taylor Swift (Oh hush, you know you have some guilty pleasures, too). But it's so subjective, and that's what I love about it. I grew up reading Rolling Stone and fantasizing about one day writing for them; or being a music critic in general. It's so Almost Famous, right?

But in reality, it's the truth. If I could do absolutely anything in my life, I would be a music critic. I want to contribute to someone else's life with music like it was for me. I want to place, what I consider to be, the most powerful thing in the world in someone's life who needs it. Who is in a hard place and needs something to ground them. Bring music to someone who is so elated, they can only find their own words in someone else's. Music is a spirit, and I want to be responsible for putting spirit into someone else's life.

But will I ever really do it? To my dismay, probably not. I love music, but like most of my relationships, I am scared to commit to it. Growing up financially unstable, I am scared to go into a profession where so few make it. But I am thinking of starting a music blog. I will let you know how that goes. But for now, family law here I come.

Listening to:

Big Jet Plane - Angus and Julia Stone